American Soldier says,
In the fog of war the measure of mistake can cost ones life. No amount of training can ever prepare you when you have to make split second decisions. This exact mindset was introduced to me very recently. In the area in which I perform missions the rules of engagement are very cut and dry. Certain things are black and white. It is the variables that can occur where you are not the only one tasked with implementing such rules.
I’d rather not share some of the further details; I’d rather just forget some of the things that occurred. This war sucks sometimes and today I am feeling the affect. I couldn’t even tell you what day it is right now. I will cheat and look at my calendar after I write this. I am tired, worn out and feeling sort of melancholy.
Some days are good and some days are very long. Today was a long day. Another mission awaits me tonight and I have no problem with that. This is my purpose here. Being a Soldier makes me proud, it’s the in between part that can be tough. So this is my entry for today. I wish I had the energy to post more but for now, I endure the affects of war.
I’ve decided to name my rifle, Chasity. It’s the middle name of my wife. She has been the little angel on my shoulder that helps me when I need it. Today I will clean Chasity and prepare her for another day outside the wire.
I love you hon. I miss you too.